Honestly, I’m still trying to fine tune that every day. But recently I’ve been think that the more I think about how to be my fullest self, I’m getting further away to being that. I’m overthinking it. I just need to be.
It seems to be the message everywhere these days;
“Be your fullest self.”
“Don’t care what other people think of you.”
Yada, yada, yada…
But how do you actually start doing this?
I think the most important thing to realize before you start questioning all of this is to realize that you’re always going to be growing and fine tuning what it means to be you.
With each passing day you’re learning new information and meeting new people that might change the way you think about something that may forever change you.
The day we accept the fact that we are always meant to be learning, growing and expanding is the day that we start to feel free of the pressure to perfect ourselves.
I’m not sure if any of this is making sense so far and writing this sentence that you’re reading now is something that is freeing me of the need to make sense all the time.
In the past, I’ve written things and then asked others to look over and edit. But that’s editing ‘me’. I’ve been told since school that I put extra words into sentences that don’t need to be there. Not random words that don’t belong but words that make sense in the sentence that just make it a bit more bulky. See, even in that sentence, I could have put, “…that make it more bulky,” instead of, “that just make it a bit more bulky.” Understand now?
I mean, don’t get me wrong, when I write my book(s) one day (yep, one of my dreams is to write a book), I will fo’ sho’ have that shizz edited. But I want it to sound like me. And sometimes, that’s a ramble. (Okay, most of the time). Trust me, ask anyone who’s been on my “Update” email list when I first started travelling in 2010. One of my old co-workers even told me once that he needed to split up my email into multiple days of reading haha. At least it was captivating enough to continue reading after the first day. (Which is the main point, right?!)
And now that my email has switched from ‘how to be your authentic self’ to ‘how my writing is a reflection of me’, which is related to the original topic in some way but not the way I thought this post was going to go when I first started writing, I’m going to leave you to read one last paragraph.
I don’t care anymore if my writing is perfect because I’m not perfect. I try my best and that’s the best I can do in this moment. I will learn to write better and be a better version of myself as I continue to walk through this life. I don’t want to be perfect as that leaves no room for error or growth. And I want to keep growing and levelling up, don’t you?